struggle dear struggle

hello guys welcome to my struggle life,i feel so confuse, and scared coz idk why im thinking abt, can i survive in this world?
 

i have a lot of dream, and isnt a big dream, standart, but all the ppl its goin to there and their do anything for get it, and me?

i just insane with my self, feelin sad, feelin so stupid, and watch some netflix.

hahaha, im trying of course, but its make my self felt more stupid coz i cant find what i want.

fot example its today, i gonna study abt bio especially enzym but i cant found it in indonesia version, i got it but different with the subject who my teacher give.

and im so very confuse, so i start to open khan academy, without translator and im fucking dont understand what thea meaning, i just write (metaboilsm, ana, and kata) coz idk there is idk i cant tell because im so confuse.

soo i move to my cambridge book, and guess what? I DONT UNDERSTAND IT. AND ISNT COMPLETE AS A BOOK IN INDONESIA OR OTHERS BOOK.

im crying, or maybe i just didn understand how to study.

can i go to bad?

(not faya, please study)

anddd i have a lot of task, like IT, BAHASA, and idk how to done it coz its different task, and i just want to sleep, and watch a movie.

meanwhile others ppl its keep study abt anything and excercice anyhing.

and im?, idk.

and idk who am'i

shut the fuck up!