confuse

 hai guys, so amm im so sad, coz im kinda confuse and little bit yaa so mad.

i have a bucket list, and its will be spent a lot of money, but in the other side, i dont want to spent my parents money, i mean we all have out own (kebutuhan) so i can be selfish right.

so actually i so confuse for choosing what can i buy, i want to buy ipad, and the cost is around 5 until 7.000.000 rupiah.

and, idk is it good or no.

hmmm, i want it, but i dont know i need it or no,  i mean we can spent the money for others thing.

acutally i ever said to my father that i want the ipad for my study, and my father said why ipad?, and i give some explain to him, and i said i can buy it in december, in my father said ya, inshaAllah, coz something lah.

idk the meaning its yes or no, but its kinda like he's agree with me, but idk.

huft im so sorry idk, ok i think i must to try to get a money, i mean i cant to always ask my parents to give me money for my education, even this is their responsible, but idk.

im not do my best, i dont feel like i must to force my self, coz im not feel their feelin when their got the money, 

so ill try, yaa, maybe nabung, and of course take a part time, or something;.

so wish me luck and goodjob