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Assalamualaikum, hai. Nama saya Shafia, umur 17 tahun, kelas 11 SMA di suatu islamic boarding school swasta di depok. Mimpi menjajikan segalanya, Aku sudah mendapatkan nya, Aku beri tahu bahwa mereka hanya menjajikan keindahan, tanpa memberi tahu apa yang kau dapatkan di dalam nya. Dulu boarding school adalah mimpi, menyenangkan memang benar, Aku menunggu semua strugle itu, tapi ternyata hidup di dalam strugle benar-benar terjadi, dilema nya, sakit nya, ingin menyerah nya. Sumpah boleh kah Aku pergi saja? (itu parah nya) Berjalan di jalan depok, naik kereta, keliling UI, naik lift sendirian, merasa bodoh di kelas IPA, teman yang tidak banyak, penelitian yang gagal, handphone dan laptop yang tidak di genggaman. Im tired of life, tapi itu yang kamu maksud Ku mau. Hai. Nama saya shafia, lagi. Mimpi ku saat ini mau bermanfaat saja, (walau masih menyusahkan) Dan mau kuliah di jerman (Aku tidak pernah suka memberitahu ini ke khalayak umum, tapi apa salah nya, kalian bantu doa...

hujan hari ini bawa duka. tapi di giring suka denga temali. awan mendung bawa aku merantau jauh ke masa lalu. di peluk kalbu di peluk rindu. ada sakit yang terbayar. pilu yang sudah membiru. hujan dan history di setiap butir nya yang jatuh. temaram. hampir temaram. untung di selamtakan. lupa, sekarang jadi elegi. lupa sekarang jad cerita.

Judge me! i never deserve  of this gifted. judge me! im just little person againts my self. i fell a slept. nightmare came brought me to neverland. awake from the nightmare. but sorry, life is a bigets nightmare honey. its deserve for all. hallo young soul. im back off with the selfish gene. can i just stay at home. stay at the time. and calm down with a rainy day. hei, im so tired lately. sorry but its more asshole than asshole. im tried and tired. im worry, and worries. its more than acnes, its more than cramps. quiet, its quiet time. stop breathing. im sorry.

the sky talk to me. i hate being rude btw. i hate my duck face everywhere. i hate to be me.  i hate to be you/

Salam alaikum hai hello belly, good night, lol ini shubuh :F so coz im feelin so bored rn, i want to talk about my quarantine story, taraa. hm, im so lazy to talk about the covid 19 with all stories like government, conspiracy, or bla bla. lets to be normal person for now. so my school told us to stay at home, and go back to home (i'am school in boarding school),  i have a lot a free time in my day, coz my school its a strict school and when  i go back to my home i got my huge privacy again, everyday with my self. and i felt so bored, actually i got so a lot of task but, I DONT DO THAT LO, and still bacot if i felt so bored!. so start when my country ask us to stay at home, i did something different in my normally habbit. lol.  i write in my blogga again. fix my own novel (tp gak jadi jadi ituu) i use snapchat again (lol) got new friend from tandem and hop (Seriously haha). reply every bodeh snap gram stories, it was so fun and amazin...

salam alaikum. well hi, my name  is shafia, maybe u dont know me, i love to write in this blog since 2017. and now is 2020. isnt a short time for me. since junior high school, i like to express my self, and my mind in here. and now im 17, i mean in 2019. so this years is time for try to find my univeristy. its a terrible feeling (ups, idk, im so scared!). so if we talk about what is i want to be? i want to be an astronouts whe i was kid. i want tobe a doctor, till now, but i dont think so. and all the creative thing. filsafat, chef, its too many. and now, i must choose what i want to be? i want tobe house wife (lol, of course) ok seriously. i think i will take law or psychologi for my major in univ. and i hope i can reach my dream university. i hope i can go to UK/ Aussie, but the cost of the univ and living its too expensive. and so strict for get a scholarship in thats country. actually my dream country and uni, is germany, especial...